That's true, I should be writing my dissertation... but I thought I would have a ramble on here instead.
So...
To fill you in, in the last two weeks I have had an interview for PGCE (or teacher training for anyone who doesn't know) and got offered a place, got the offer of an interview for my second choice of PGCE (more on that later), lost my brain, had a lovely Christmas and hopefully found my brain again.
(other than the fact that both time I meant to write "brain" I actually wrote "brian" and had to go back and change it *facepalm*)
So now you're all up to date....
PGCE-
I want to be a teacher... a primary teacher, specialising in special educational needs so that I can support students just like myself to never give up on their dreams. I mean... If I can do it, then anyone can!
My first choice is to do the standard primary PGCE (5-7 year olds) at Bath Spa with a specialism in special educational needs. As I said earlier i've had my interview and been offered a place (if I can pass the skills tests and get a 2:2 at uni this year) but... being me, I always like to have a backup plan.
Sooo... my second choice was to do a school direct learning program which is basically like a teacher training apprenticeship, I got offered an interview which I was originally over the moon about. When I read through the "Well done we like you" email that they send out after offering you an interview, I realised that by accepting and having an interview, when id already been offered a place on the course I wanted to do, I would be taking that opportunity away from someone else. Now I know that it shouldn't matter and its every man for himself or whatever... but I felt bad! I know that if they offered me a place the conditions of the offer would be the same as my first choice meaning that if I didn't meet the conditions I wouldn't be able to go to either any way. I also knew that if I got offered a place and met the requirements I was always going to choose the other course. So I turned it down... I said thankyou for the opportunity but id like someone else to have it.
Surprisingly, im not at all fussed, usually not having a back up plan or making big decisions like that panics me... but I'm fine and I hope that whoever they offer that opportunity to grabs it with both hands!
Brain (again with the "brian" I don't even know a brian!)-
Over the Christmas period my plan was to have my literature review (the reading books and writing what they say thingy) of my dissertation done...
Now I know I am one for setting un realistic goals and expectations for myself and beating myself up when I cant reach them, but I figured I could definitely write 2500 words in the three weeks I had off for Christmas...
Well... clearly not!
At the beginning of the holiday I spent two straight days staring at my computer screen in a nest of books, writing no more than 200 words a day! just to put it into perspective... usually I can crack out at least 800 words in a day but my brain seemed to just run away with its self and decided not to play ball!
Today however I sat down in front of my computer and cracked out 500 words in an hour... then I went for lunch and now im writing this... but still... I feel like that a vast improvement and Im hoping its an indicator that my brain has finally returned from its Christmas vacation *Cheers and woops*.
pppppppsssssssssstttttttt. *Whispers* didn't write brian that time *wink*
anywhoooooo.... I suppose i'm done and should get back to writing this dissertation rather than rambling away! Hope everyone has had a lovely Christmas with their loved ones!
Just me,
Em x
