Doing nothing.

It's so easy to do nothing.
To sit in bed and pretend that you're being productive, like I am as I am writing this.
I know that I should be continuing to clear out my room. So I finally have a reasonable amount of stuff to fit into such a small space. Instead though I have been scrolling through the online shops and Facebook to learn that someone I haven't spoken to in over six years is now engaged to someone I didn't even know they were with.

Now I know that I'm doing nothing and I'm not doing anything about it, In fact by doing nothing I have decided that if I write a blog post about me doing nothing, I can do nothing for a little longer.
Did you get that?
In fairness this is my first real day off where I don't have anything really important to be doing since like three weeks ago, so why can't I just do nothing?
I shall tell you why, because mum is working from home today and will continue to "remind" me that it's not yet done and that I should probably be getting on with it.

I am the sort of person where if I want to get something done I will stay up and will not give up until it's complete. On the other hand if I don't want to do it I will put it off for as long as possible and try to pretend it's not there.
This drives my friends insane I'm sure.
I hate to let people down so if someone needs me to do something I will often put that before what I was meant to be doing. Which is what keeps happening with my bedroom, although I don't want to do that, so any other option is always a better one.

In terms of today, I have taken the dog out for a nice long walk in the rain and had lunch. That was more than I'd planned so you could call that a success. Starting next week (procrastinating just a little longer) I am going to try and make every day that I have off until I go back to uni in September as productive as possible. I will try to make a list of  all the jobs that I need to do during the day to help me stay organised and on track. I love a good list, always makes me more productive as I just want to tick everything off. That really sad I know...
What can I say, lists are exciting things!

So from writing this blog post, you've gained nothing and I did nothing for an extra fifteen minutes of my day. You now know (if you didn't before) that I like lists and that I have people on Facebook that I haven't spoken to in years but still like to occasional stalk (not in a weird way I swear). Not to mention you now know that I am seriously good at doing nothing.
As it promises in my header, this is just my ramblings and my moany rubbish, enjoy.


Just me,
Em x

Becoming an adult.

That's it... First two years of uni over.
I passed every module and assignment and will be graduating in November.
It's fair to say all the hard work was worth it and I can now wave my results in the face of anyone who didn't believe I could do it!
I have had many a break down and almost given up, but next year I am off to Bath Spa to complete my degree and hopefully go on to be a teacher.

Over the summer I have balanced many responsibilies and really haven't spent that much time just doing nothing or getting around to cleaning my room (that I promised would be done about two months ago) oops.
In the accasional day that I don't spend either with my godson, babysitting, at work or with friends I have thought a lot about being an adult.
How crazy is it to think that at my age my parents were about to get married and owned their own home, whilst I'm still here living with my parents and getting drunk at the weekends.
I could not imagine even thinking about getting married right now (even if I did have a bf), I don't feel grown up enough to even move out just yet let alone get married!
There are still people that do get married young and good luck to them seriously... Spending everyday with someone up in your grill all the time! No thankyou....

Now a days there is so much pressure on children as young as 10 to act "grown up".
They should still be having a melt down when their mum says they can't have a sleepover on a school night, or that they are not alowed to be out playing in the park when the street lights come on. Now children have phones, social media and don't want to go out to play with their friends because they can just FaceTime them or talk to them on the Xbox. When I was young going to call on my friends and playing in the street with footballs, scooters, dolls and having water fights with the other children in our street were some of my favourite things to do during the summer. I would love to go back to then when my biggest responsibility was feeding my hamster, that if I forgot mum would do anyway...

I cannot get my head around the fact that (if my current plan works out) I will be a fully qualified teacher in 2 years time. I will be responsible for teaching the next generation how to read, write and be decent human beings. Hopefully by then I will have moved out and will be completely independent. Is it bad to wish that I could just fast forward to being a "real adult", that drinks wine with dinner, pays bills (no mum that does not mean I want to start paying rent) and goes to work?

When your young you often have an ideal (yet unrealistic) scenario for your life. I know I did.
I thought that by the time I was 22 I would have a job, a family and my own life. Although at that point I thought 22 was "really old" so it's fair to say that my scenario was definately unrealistic and I'm glad it didn't work out that way. I'm having fun being young and selfish, doing things for me and only having to worry about the few responsibilies I have on a day to day basis. I believe that life is to be lived and your choices will determined where you end up in life. I don't plan ahead, I could change my mind tomorrow about going to uni and decide that I'd rather work in retail or move to antartica for the rest of my life. Although... Probably not because I like my mums cooking to much *wink*

Just me,
Em x