What friends are for.

Something was said to me tonight (well... This morning technically), there may or may not have been alcohol involved, but we were walking homes from the pub after all...
Hold on...
Let me set the scene for you.
We (me and my two best chums) had gone to the pub for some beverages of the alcoholic variety, it is Friday night after all! Anyway we chatted for hours putting the world to rights before heading home.
On the walk there was the mention of hunger so I offered the kitkat I had found in my bag prior on the walk down.
I know... I'm just to kind right?
Anyway as I handed over the bar, the recipient (posh word) stated "what are friends for if not to give you food when your hungry?"
This got me thinking...
What are friends actually for?
They have no specific role they are just there to be part of your support network and to be THAT person no matter what you need THAT person to be.
Sometimes they have to play the bad cop and make you mad.
Sometimes they have to hug you when you're sad.
Sometimes they have to have your back in a fight,
Or stand up for you when no one else does...
But one this always remains the same (if they are a good friend of course) they will always have your best interests at heart, they will pretect you when you need pretecting and tell you the truth even when the truth hurts and most of all they will like you for you and will not try and change even those really annoying habits or quirks you may have.
Of course I have none because I'm completely perfect *wink*
At school you have friends, lots of friends but it's not til you leave and go your separate ways that you actually learn who your true friends are and who you can count on.

I really don't say it enough but my friends are awesome, we have inside jokes, constant giggles and they even accept my barking mad family. So.. That's what friends are for, to be your support and your THAT person when you need them, and be your agony aunt and gossip chum when you don't.

Why I am writing a blog post after just getting in from the pub you may be thinking... The answer is I don't know... Maybe I would have forgetten or it wouldn't have seemed so relivant in the morning (could be afternoon at this rate).

Just me,
Em x

Life.

Life is hard... No one said it was going to be easy!
Everybody experiences it differently, but almost everyone will have a point in their life where they struggle and want to give up.
For the loved ones around you this is their chance to show they care and drag you through kicking and screaming if they have too...
But they don't always know.
Life is too short to keep yourself to yourself, you get no where.
Sharing is caring and all that!!
Sometimes in life you notice those around you acting differently or making strange decisions... should you step in?
You don't want to feel like you're intruding but you care, right?
So you tread on eggshells and ask questions around the subject rather than coming right out with it...
I am a known culprit of this but no more! I am going to ask the awkward and scary questions because I need to be there and help anyway I can even if its just lending an ear or two.
Heartbreak of a friend or family is awful, and awkward... do they want constant reassurance that "they were just a massive asshole" or do they want to be left alone?
But what do you do if you know someone is going to get their heart broken... you can see it now, exactly how its going to happen and are just waiting to pick up the pieces again.
Do you warn them or stand well clear?
Its true people have to make their own mistakes but if you warned them would they act differently?
Jeeezz people are complicated and yet we gravitate towards them?
We basically chose our friends like "you're a nice human, I think I'll keep you" and your stuck.
(Unless they turn into a psychopath of course *wink*)
I personally feel a sense of responsibility for my friends and family, as I'm sure most people do, wanting to keep them safe and out of harms way where I can.
So I am going to ask the awkward questions, give the warnings even when it might not be what they want to hear and I am going to stick by my friends and family no matter what because I like my choice of humans (even if they are all a little odd *wink*)

Just me,
Em x

A week off? No.

This week is half term.
A luxury for us students where you finally get to catch up on that lecture you missed three weeks ago and start to understand what your lecturer has actually been talking about for the last week or two.
Now, usually half term for me consist of work and lounging about until it's time to actually do something or go back to uni...
Some days I don't even bother to change out of my pjs...
But this half term is different, it hasn't even started yet and I'm already struggling to find a spare minute to finally get around to tidying my room or even just slob out in front of the tele...
This year my lecturers thought that it would be a good idea to set five deadlines for the same day, which means handing in 10,000 words and doing two completely different presentations on near enough the same thing!
Now if life wasn't complicated enough I now have to try and write essays two months in advance to make sure I get them all in on time whilst still having other deadlines alongside.
Basically just don't talk to me from the beginning of april right through to the start of June because I am going to be stressing BIG time!
Oops... Going off topic.
Anyway, my original plan for half term was to start a couple of my essays, get some reading done for my research project and chill out. Now it seems that the only day I am going to have left to chill out is Sunday!
A whole week off and my only free day is Sunday? How does that work?
I brought a week planner, thinking ohhhh that will be a pretty way to display all the things I have to do this week:

Awhhhh how sweet with all it's cute little flowers and owls...

Or so I thought!! 

It's now turned into the planner of doom!! (I feel this filter is more fitting!) 

It has become the thing I dread to look at as it reminds me of how busy I am and how much I have to be doing...

But it does show that i am actually sticking to the promises I made to myself in my "Organising my life." Blog post I suppose...

Basically I had nothing important to say (do I ever?) so I sprouted a load of moany rubbish about how busy I am. You my friend, are very welcome *wink*. 

Just me, 

Em x 

My best friends are the best.

So... Today as you will know is Valentine's Day... *snooorreee*
Valentine's day is a day for couples to be all smushy and loved up, sending flowers and chocolates to express their feelings that in reality should be expressed in everyday life.
Also... I for one think that sending flowers and chocolates on a random day rather than one which effectively tells you to is much more romantic.
But me and my bestest chums... we do it differently.
As we are all shelf buddies, as my mum never fails to remind us, we have an anti-valintines day.
Last year we have pizza, movies and gossip and this year one of my bestest chums cooked for us and we will be watchinging movies more than likely until the earlier hours of the morning.
Now, these aren't just any movies... They are the yhe most chicky, flicky movie in the history of chick flicks and we love it *wink*.
It's a boy free zone where slobbing and lack of ladylike-mess is allowed.
I think what I love best is that there is no judgement.
Right now... I am slobbed on a bed with hair that could do with a good brush, my brothers old jumper and little to no makeup, and no one cares!?!
There is no "oh you look rough" or "what you wearing that for?" It's just not mentioned... We don't have to justify ourselved to each other because we are comfortable. Like really comfortable!!
Obviously there are many more things I love about them too but these are the things that stand out today.
Everyone needs a support network and people that they can be completely themselves around... And I'm happy with my choice.

Just me,
Em x

Organising my life.

Anyone who knows me will know that I am the most unorganised person EVER!
I am late for everything and I'm a complete scatter brain with most things...
In fact I think the only thing I am organised about is my uni work, all my notes have to be done in a particular format and notes have to be done in full or it will grate on me until its fixed.
I mean just look at my placement journal:

Is that odd? Probably...

I decided at the beginning of this year that I was going to try and change this, which obviously hasn't happened as of yet! As you may know... I wouldn't go as far as to say that it was a new years resolution, because who ever sticks to those? Not me, that's for sure. But it was definitely a goal that I wanted to achieve.

In case you hadn't already noticed I am also a brilliant procrastinator, its one of my many talents! In fact I'm probably doing it right now as I have a million and one other things that I should be doing but instead I'm writing rubbish and putting it off until later. Again...

But I have decided I need to get myself more organised and start making the most of the time I do have, rather than stressing and leaving everything to the last minuet. I am going to use my rare free time to slowly start working my way through all those jobs that I know I should have done months ago... like tidying my room and sorting out my clothes for example. I have so many clothes that I can hardly move and to be honest... I only have about 20 outfits I actually wear! Including my particularly large jumper collection...

I'm going off on one... but the point is, I'm going to try and get myself organised and do things systematically and in plenty of time!
To be honest I don't know how I've survived uni this long whilst being so unorganised!

Talking of being unorganised... Mums just got home and told me off for not doing the job I was meant to have done in the two hours they've been out...
Oops!

Better go and put my plans into action!

Just me,
Em x

Too much on my plate.

So recently I have realised that I was busy 7 days a week.

I was getting sick all the time and letting people down... Which I hate, as you will know if you've read my "letting people down." Blog post.
I realised that I was just existing and wasn't really having fun with the time I had, I was caught up in a routine mainly consisting of: uni, essays, job, job, job, eat, sleep, yet more essays.
That's right... I was balancing three jobs and uni because I needed the money, but did I really need the money?
The answer is no.
I just thought I needed the money, I could survive on just two jobs and more sleep.
Now anyone who knows me will know i am a massive shop aholic and buy far to many clothes and other bits and bobs I most definately do not need.
So leaving a job I'd been at for four and a half years was a seriously hard decision...
It mainly came down to the fact that I needed more time and I was no longer enjoying working there.

This posses the question:
Are you just existing? Or are you having fun?
Now if you're having fun and enjoy the routine you're in, then good for you, I'm really pleased and keep up the good work *wink*.
But if you, like me, are mearly existing do something about it!! There is things out there that you can do to change, find a hobby or find a new job... Life isn't all about money and how much you can earn...

As members of society we are expected to; go to school, get an education and work until we die...
But why should we?
There is no rule to say that you can't take a year off from everything and go traveling or just be a bum for six months!

Growing up my parents always taught me that money isn't everything and you don't need to be rich or even well off to enjoy life. This is something I am definately going to carry throughout life and will encourage me to have more "free fun", spending time with the people I love and making the most of the life I create for myself!

I've freed up some space on my plate to spend time with the people I love... Have you?
Something to think about...

Just me,
Em x